A Time to Heal
I came to Vientiane in mid 2019 for work, but more so to
“forget”.
To forget the loss, heartbreak, and pain of unrequited love
in 2018.
I was cooped up, living in my own world, reading books,
trying to make sense of it all. Then I went to this networking event to meet
new friends, but waited to seek help until November.
“The Only Way Out is Through”
Recently, I’ve read five (5) of Brene Brown’s books and it
was only now I discovered how excruciating it is to “sit and/or lean in with
the discomfort”. Moreover, the weekly therapy sessions- a combo of Cognitive
Behavior Therapy (CBT) along with Reiki, Tuina, breathing, plus journaling
exercises and homework helped me overcome the pain- both physical and
emotional. Little by little, the dam broke- my old beliefs, thinking patterns
all came crumbling down with the following questions:
1.
Who am I?
2.
Why is my self-worth so little?
3.
Why have I given my power away to others in
various ways?
4.
Why am I living a life that I dislike? and
5.
Why am I not doing anything for change to occur?
The Emergence of the true self
Slowly, I am coming into my own- I can feel and see it—more
socializing, less ego, less judgment of others, speaking up my truth, less
shoving down (metaphysics states that your physical body manifests illness
because of unresolved issues. In my case, I had an ACL- left knee
reconstruction in 2018). More yoga and/or exercise, more focused and calm, happier
disposition, meditations have become more fun and I end up smiling. Overall, feeling
grateful and positive, which stems from a genuine place- the solar plexus or the
feeling chakra, then going down to the sacral chakra, or being.
“Flow”
Four months in, the journey has not been easy, yet very
rewarding. The transition from healing to manifesting still takes “work”. But
now, I end sessions with a smile, instead of sadness or “what just happened in
there?” and feeling tired.
Outcome
Just this week alone (8-14 Mar), I have chatted with more
colleagues, encouraged others to be and do more for themselves, tested for an
Editor role (though it says Native speakers only). one of the firms I applied
for says recruitment will be affected/delayed due to current events, but not to
worry (and I was just happy that they
replied to their applicants), made my 1st vlog. And for the 1st
time, some students and teachers noticed my amethyst bracelet (though I’ve been
wearing it since Jan 2020). Plus, I’ve written something very honest and I
couldn’t stop myself from crying (the tears and the words just kept flowing),
which I’ve not done in years. Indeed, my inner voice has spoken.
A message
Thank you for the constant push and encouragement, Rebekka.
At times, I know I’m a challenging person to deal with. Now, I understand that
“life happens for me”.
No longer am I worried where I will end up next because I
have everything inside me and equipped with the tools to create and take charge
of my life from the core of my being.
Truly, I am overjoyed with my development- and small steps
are okay to in finding yourself and everything has been worth it.
About the writer:
A 35 year-old proud lesbian, HS
English Teacher in Vientiane. She has been on the program since Nov 2019 and
has paid for all her sessions. To get in-touch, pls. email: Chacha.chua@gmail.com
For those interested in living the
life that you truly want, kindly get in touch with Rebekka Lee (A Dane based in
Vientiane, Laos) https://www.facebook.com/tuinahealing/
She provides (Skype) sessions to
clients.
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